gudbye,you.

Since you left, I realized that love is nothing but bullshit. True love doesn't exist, and forever is just a lie between hello and good bye. But on the brightside is, I finally found the 'good' in 'good bye'. Well, to be honest, I ain't gonna pretend like I'm okay with all of this, like I'm doing well without you because the truth is it took all the power inside of me to let you go. It ain't an easy task to let go of the memories, and the dreams we've built together. Even though I knew it from the start, that there would be a time for us to stand by ourselves, to live our lives in our own way. I just can't stand the idea of you walking away without knowing that yes, I do regret. I regret my decision, and if only I could turn the hands of time, I'd stay in your arms forever and wouldn't ever let you go. But you've taken your own decision, and I respect yours like you did respect mine. So now, I wanna say thank you for everything, for the amazing 32 months full of beautiful memories. You're the best thing that's ever happened in my life. And I'm sorry, I can't be the best. But trust me, I've always tried to be, but I just could never be good enough.. No one's ever stuck with me for so long before. I wish you love, I wish you luck, for you the world just opens up, but don't forget about me, us. Always remember that I love you so much, I love you with all my heart, and my arms are always wide open for you whenever you want to come back home.

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It’s the worst feeling in the world, to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

it hurts

Why they don't listen?
Why they don't understand?
It hurts being unwanted and seeing the others are completely okay and happy without you.
It hurts being unacceptable when every time what all we do is just being ourselves.
It hurts to be different when all you do is just making some confident with yourself.
It hurts to faked who you are when the others are accepting the faked you, not the real you.
It hurts to put the poker face mask when all you want is there will be someone who would care for you.
It hurts to cried when all you want is to be happy, to accept the truth and reality.
It hurts to be fear of the others when they know you are not a part of them.
It hurts for being left behind when all you wanna do is just to be with them, laugh and share a story with them.
It hurts when the others cheated on you when you all wanna know is the truth.
It hurts when the others lied to you, faked their face and story for you.
It hurts when someone underestimate you and doesn't want to know what you're capable of.
It hurts when they don't appreciate all of the things that you've done for them.

Maybe if you read this, take a look at yourself on the mirror.
Don't worry, I'll take a look at myself on the mirror.
No one wants to feel all those stuffs up there.
No one wants to be lonely.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

Happy Valentine's Day Love!!

Hopefully there'll be no more tears and drama.

Thank you for making me feel loved and smart

Thank you for letting me laugh at my self for fun and laughing along with me

Thank you for being you

This time I will fight to make things work better too.

ur honey,

 Wiendy